Today’s class was the best yet. Is it because of a few extra hours of sleep I got last night? Or the cumulative effect of doing this every day for 2 weeks straight? Or maybe it’s because I saw the guy who introduced me to Bikram in the first place? He has no idea how it has affected my life. In fact, I used to get so nervous around him, I definitely had a small crush on him. When I saw him in class today, I got all shaky. And then I had the best class so far. I got through all 26 six postures without breaking, and they were STRONG I tell you. At the end I felt like I’ve never felt before, my entire body was all tingly and I was even a tiny bit dizzy, though in a different way. I also realized that I’m no longer nervous around him, and the crush is gone, thank you much!
The big moment for me was in Toe Stand. I was actually able to get down into it, and 
come back up! I kept falling out of the last step, which is to get back into Tadasana, or Tree Pose, but better luck next time. I couldn’t help but smile after that. I have been scared of this pose for a while, because you have to send yourself forward while in Tree Pose and catch yourself on the floor with your hands, before bending the leg into the full Toe Stand. I’m so proud of myself, this is a great day.
The spine strengthening series on the floor has been challenging me the last few days, ever since my stiff neck appeared. I’m not sure if that has anything to do with it, but my back muscles are feeling weak
lately. I’m sure it’s because I’m trying to work on the backbending postures and the abdominal muscles are waking up? They’ve never been really put to use, so I’m sure, they are like, what the heck. Dhanurasana, or Bow Pose has been especially hard. I get this burning sensation up and down the whole front of my body, and I can’t wait to get out of the pose. The thing is, I’m not pushing myself either. I think the my progress in doing this kind of yoga goes through a cycle where it ebbs and flows, depending a lot on what’s going on in my head. I’m trying to quiet the noise in my head and train it to go into poses instead of over thinking them.
